Have you stabbed yourself awake? Or are you just accumulating knowledge? Has all this knowledge become a personal experience for you? Have you seen the negative emotions within you? Did you self-justify? Hopefully, when you are indulging in such emotions, you are consciously aware that you are doing so and you strive to work on yourself and your interactions with others to diminish the power your negative emotions have over you.
This is how waking up begins. Finding a point at which to work on yourself and do it. Make the knowledge personal by applying it to your life.